How Faith Helps Me Overcome Anxiety

Let me preface this post by clarifying a few things. I’m not seeking validation. I’m not seeking attention. I don’t want sympathy. I don’t claim to know the answer to everyone’s struggles. These are my experiences, and the reason why I’ve never done more than briefly reference my struggles is that, until recently, I didn’t think it was anyone else’s business but mine. But given recent events and the growing conversations, I figured now is the time to be a part of the conversation.

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Thoughts On Working In A Field Outside What I Studied In College

Graduation is one week away. The closer that day comes, the more often I get asked what my plans are after I get my degree. I am happy to say that I’ve been offered a position as an assistant for the Gift Processing department at my soon-to-be alma mater. Will I be doing anything related to my major in this position? No, I will not. Do I plan on doing anything with my degree specific to what I studied? Absolutely not. Here are some thoughts on not working in my field.

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God’s Love

Pure. Extraordinary. Comforting, Overwhelming. These are just a few words that come to mind when I ponder God’s unfailing (oh look, another word) love that I feel each and everyday. At this point, it’s no giant secret that I am a child of God. But while my faith isn’t something that I keep hidden, I’ve come to realize that it’s not exactly something I talk too much about, either. This may be because I don’t feel like I have the adequate theological knowledge that a lot of my friends have, or that I’m very much still learning what it’s like to live a life alongside Christ. But the one thing that I am sure of that I think I can adequately detail in a blog post is my understanding of God’s love. So, friends, whether you are a believer or not, I invite you to peer into this large part of my life. If you felt a tug on your heart as soon as you read that title, and if you still feel that tug getting this far into my post, I urge you to read on – hopefully this post will serve as some threshold to your own path of understanding God’s love.

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100th Blog Post: Where I’ve Been and Where I’m Going

I’ve been putting off writing this blog post, partly because these past few weeks have been super hectic for me (what else is new), but mostly because I couldn’t decide what I wanted to write about for this milestone. When I logged onto WordPress a couple weeks ago, I had every intention to write my usual quarter-end reflection, until I realized that this would be my 100th post. I asked for suggestions from a few friends, and while I was given really good suggestions, none of them seemed apt enough to write for the big 1-0-0. Thus, I let this draft sit for a few weeks while more ideas simmered in the back burner of my mind. I’ve decided to save the ideas people gave me for future blog posts, and instead make this one a retrospective, despite having already written plenty of those in the past. In case you don’t make it past this paragraph and decide that you’ve read enough of my mushy word vomit (wow interesting word selection there, Walt), I would just like to say thank you for reading my posts, whether you’ve only read one of my blog posts or all 100. You really don’t have to spend 5 minutes of your day reading what I have to say, but the fact that you do truly means a lot to me.

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Revisiting My Old Tumblr Blog Posts

A little backstory: Back in the (not so) distant days of high school, 16 year old Walter made a Tumblr account, and I kept up with updating it for the rest of high school and for a good part of college. Eventually, I created a private sub-account where I would document my college experiences for my close friends from back home to read on a weekly basis – at least for my freshman year, and the first part of sophomore year. Over the next few years, updates on that blog would come very few and far between, all of which came when I had some sort of “epiphany” and needed to document it. As you all may or may not know, I have since abandoned both of those accounts, as I have this one to update regularly.

Recently, I’ve decided to revisit both blogs – both the private and public ones – and see how far I’ve come since my Tumblr high school/early college days. I expected to find a lot of nostalgia (which I did), but I also found a whole lot of cringe. These posts were so unbelievably angsty, and I wrote as if I knew everything about the universe (admittedly, I probably still do that, but I’d like to think that I now have a little more perspective than I did when I was eighteen). As I was going through these posts, I thought why keep the cringe to myself when I can share it with all of the internet – or at least the internet that follows me on social media – since it’s already been floating around for the past several years.

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The Art of (Pretending) Having It Together

Notice the featured image I chose, taken a few days ago: Home early from work because of a cold, bed unmade, scouring social media (but please draw your attention away from the hole in my sock). This photo, for the most part, is a lot like the current state of my life: In apparent disarray, but with the right filter, still looks aesthetically pleasing. Every Thursday, I co-emcee Cru’s weekly meetings, and every Thursday, I show up wearing my business casual attire I wear at my grown-up job as a Marketing Assistant for an actual company. I always get comments left and right about how my outfits at Weekly Meeting are always on point, hair impeccably coiffed, and how my strides are always laced with confidence. Little do those people know that just a few moments before I walked through the doors, I was picking stray lettuce off of my lap from stuffing my face with McDonald’s while I raced and cursed in the middle of rush hour traffic. Pretending I have it together is my forte, and I am here to tell you how much my life is in shambles, and how I came to terms with that.

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Dear Donald Trump

 

Dear Mr. Trump,

It has now been about two months since you have been elected the next President of the United States, and what an interesting two months it has been. I must say, the day after the election was a strange day, and I felt such a wide range of emotions watching you win those last few electoral votes – anger, sadness, confusion, panic, intrigue. I usually refrain from sharing my political opinions publicly, but due to the climate of this past election season, I can’t help but feel a responsibility to finally share my feelings with you and my readers.

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Blogmas Day 13: How Wow Pow Chow (12/12-12/16)

This week was one of those weeks where nothing particularly exciting happened. There weren’t any stand-out days where something either really great happened, or something absolutely dismal happened that would put a damper on the entire week. I will say that the calmness of this past week was nice, and given the highs and lows of the past few months, the stagnancy of the week was a nice contrast from the usual chaos. Nonetheless, I’m here to find something to write about in an attempt to make this otherwise unmemorable week a memorable one.

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Blogmas Day 12: Things I’m Bad At As An Adult

First, I apologize for missing the past two days of Blogmas. As you can imagine, trying to blog every single day can get pretty taxing, especially if you’re already on a full-time work schedule and all you want to do at the end of every work day is nothing.

The other day, I was talking to a friend at work, and he asked me what my work schedule was now that school is out for winter break. When I told him I’m basically working 8 to 5 everyday, the normal full time work schedule, he was in disbelief, and followed his shock with “Wow, you’re such an adult.” To this, I shrunk into my chair and exclaimed, “I AM NOT,” even though I am well aware that at this point I’m pretty much well underway in my foray into adulthood. While I am assuming all of the normal adult responsibilities pretty well – things like paying bills, doing taxes, and working full time – there are still so many things that I am bad at as an adult, as I’m sure many other budding adults are bad at as well. Hopefully you all can relate to some of this stuff, because there’s no such thing as a perfect adult – at least that’s what I’m trying to tell myself to feel better. Anyway, here are a few things I’m bad at as an adult.

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Blogmas Day 11: Best of 2016

I usually compile a bigger list of some of the cool things that happened to me throughout the year on New Year’s Eve, but I figure choosing five of the best highlights of the year and going into a bit more detail of each one would be a better idea. Even though there’s still 19 days left of 2016, I decided to write this post now because of a few reasons: 1. I really just needed something to write about for today’s Blogmas post that would be easy yet somewhat thoughtful and 2. I don’t think anything too extravagant could possibly happen in the remaining two and a half weeks of the year. Please know that I am extremely thankful for everything that happened to me this year, and that I learned a lot about who I am as a person through some of the bigger events, but in the spirit of keeping things a bit more lighthearted, I decided to highlight other opportunities I took over the course of the year, and save the sappy post for later.

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